It seemed to me that December flew by. November was such a busy, amazing month and I had decided to devote some time to my family (hence the hiatus on the posts- love how so many of you have asked why I hadn't blogged and sent the most thoughtful messages!). I spent my time enjoying the holiday season and I've missed all of you but I've also enjoyed soaking up the holiday madness. My husband and I generally have a line up of parties and events that we go to throughout the holiday season on top of our annual Dec. 23 bash and it leaves us feeling tired, exhausted and overall fatigued. However, we also feel loved, grateful and full of joy for the people around us and sharing in their lives. Two of my fav fellow teachers (and great friends) were at our party and I loved getting a chance to chat, catch up and share experiences and knowledge that we're picking up along the way. It was an added bonus that we were all three in something other than yoga pants! It's those connections that I seek in my life (it's as strong as the ocean tide inside of me) and the holidays offer so many ways to connect! I look forward to the holiday season every year and secretly miss the buzz of energy that goes with it. I even miss the 7 trees that I put up in my house. Yes, you read that right. I love every one of them and they make me smile all season long. My husband helped in the take down this year and I'm pretty sure he wasn't smiling...in fact, I'm sure of it!
Since the new year has started, I've been feeling sore and fatigued. I've been attributing this to the "holiday hangover" that is so common, but I realized last night what is causing it. I had surgery in mid December and I can't work out or do yoga for 6 weeks. 6 WEEKS! That's a lifetime in my world. I faithfully workout and have a faithful daily yoga practice. I do both because I absolutely love to. Initially, I thought I would manage the forced down time without a problem, however, it dawned on me that IS the reason I'm sore, achy and tired. I'm missing the workouts and more importantly my body is missing my daily yoga practice. Without it my body feels tight and fractured, not fluid and whole. My yoga practice allows so many things within my life and as a bonus it offers me the space to be grateful for my health and those I love. It provides the connection within myself and reminds me to be mindful in my self care. I began to think about how much emphasis in both my personal practice and in teaching to students I put on feeling every movement of your body and each full inhale and exhale as opposed to working on autopilot and simply "going through the motions". That's what I've been doing....just going through the motions. I've lost the connection and I miss it! I may not be able to do my workouts or my daily practice for a few more weeks, but there's no reason that I can't work on other aspects that will provide that reconnection. Just as Savasana provides a space to allow your practice to settle and fill you greatly, a rebirth, a new beginning (keep in mind there are many different translations- this is only one of them), this is exactly where I began this morning. I went back to the basics and if you've taken my classes, you know that I always remind you that there is nothing wrong with uncomplicated, simple poses. You get out of them what you put into them. As I allowed my body to exist in savasana and mindfully reconnected with my body, heart and soul through my breath and a release of worry I began to feel a lightness and fullness that I had been missing. I went back to the basics and I was so happy to be there and my body thanked me for it.
So my dear yogis, I encourage you to do the same. Find that sweet space where you are open to more and can fill up on all this world has to offer. Find your rebirth, new beginning and feel your breath. Create that connection within your life, yourself and each other. We are a community that thrives on the support that we all offer and the more present we are within ourselves, the more mindful we are within our practice and lives.